Got news last night that my dad has apparently been scanned with some abnormalities on lung/tongue/chin that may be cancerous. 

When he went in for a better scan, the lungs showed clear, but there is clearly something on the other two locations. While the doctor does not "think" it is cancer, my father is going in for additional testing. Keep good thoughts up, please. 

Mom didn't want to tell me because she seems to have some sort of impression that I live in a vacuum down here. Because I don't have a husband or children that I am somehow in a compromised position of weakness. Nevermind I do have friends, and loved ones around regardless.  So because she feels that way, I of course have to prove her wrong. That encases me into the position of acting nonchalant. Because if I dont, she worries more. 

:/  

Have 1.5 days off this week. Yay! have to work a half day on Friday, so can't go home. :/ Boo.  

Work has been the usual drama. Still haven't heard back about the new position. I keep getting told that while I have made a really good impression on the potential hiring person, they are wanting to find a "perfect skill match". So it pretty much leaves me dangling from week to week going from a hopeful high to a blah low. 

WTB happy medium, pst. 

Otherwise, I've managed to get over myself for the most part. Generally when I get moody and down, it takes me a bit to climb out. Everyone says medication is supposed to help with that, but it really doesn't seem to work for me that way. Doctor never seemed worried about it and just said to give it time. 

Really hate having to depend on anything such as medication to "control" things. It's still a weakness to perceive and address. I feel weak because it is not something that I can merely do on my own. A temporary thing becoming a permanant crutch. My entire family is afflicted with this type of thing, and none of them have escaped being on medication for long. 

Other than that, Im up to exercizing again. I keep screwing up my ankle though, so Im using an indoor bike rather than walking. Ill throw in a movie and while watching it, ill ignore the fact Im actually working out. Seems to do well. Too bad I can't hook up vent near that and just chatter away while I do it! :) 

Guess it's odd that I still worry about peeps I barely/never talk to anymore. Ill admit that even after a huge fallout on WoW, I still read the journals of the people involved. While I don't apologize for my feelings in the matter, I do still feel remorse for the hurt that was caused. And yes, I admit that I still miss talking to Lane. I ask about her when I talk to jon_the_cynic, who I also haven't spoken with in a long time. I miss talking to him too. The last I heard was he had a new apt. 

I miss talking to Thomas and Yoriko, and wonder how things are with them and what they are up to. 
I miss talking to Julie and hearing about her translating jobs. 
I miss talking to Blue Moon, and regret I was taken off his friends list, unable to reply to his journal entries. 
I miss talking to Neil, even with his off color jokes :) 
I miss talking to adrem, and Shirofan with their dry sense of humor. 

I guess I just miss alot of people. heh.  

Not commenting on the actual abortion issue one way or another...but this has got to be the most inane statement by a politician ever : 

"If you don't believe abortion doesn't affect you," Says Tom Delay, "I contend it affects you in immigration. If we had those 40 million children who were killed over the last 30 years, we wouldn't need the illegal immigrants to fill the jobs that they are doing today.

 "Think about it."

I can think of many things to say about abortion...but that comment just totally flabbergasts me. So the reason we have people defying the law and sneaking in to the country is because people have abortions? 0,o

Had a slight relapse of the cold on Saturday. Was coughing a bit more than I liked. Sunday we went out during the day, got Chipotle, then browsed two bookstores. Went back to friends, I played S2, then we ate pizza for dinner. 

Definitely not a good eating day :)

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Edit: So my main in WoW is a Troll Hunter named Shayle. She's an engineer and can make all sorts of fireworks. We thought it would be neat to have a guild fireworks show in the main city of Orgrimmar. So for the past few weeks we worked on getting the mats together and I made many fireworks of different colors and sizes. 

You can see some of the results in the link above. They were taken by "Noxnil" a fellow guildie ;)

Cause I know that some people like my Emo posts... (not)
Nothing really new. I was looking in to going back to classes this fall, but the safety switch in my engine broke so I had to get that fixed. Car wouldn't start. Now it works, but it set me back. Plus I still have lots of money that I owe people. I hate being in debt and it buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurnnns precious! it burns! 

So yeah, lol, trying to get that money as well as getting to college as well as trying to fix my car pretty much means schools not happening. Needed about 1K before fall season started and that's obviously not happenin on my salary. 

But that was about as emo as I get, sorry to disappoint. 

One thing that does get me down is when I see neat and spiffy people getting horribly down and depressed and I can't really do anything to alleviate that pain. Of course, sometimes I can't even help myself when I get that way. But for all those out there hurting right now, please accept my love and affection and any sympathy I can offer.